at home now. no school, miss learning festival and sports carnival :( Ah well, we all have to adapt! Study hard instead!
wonderful song from the anime gundam seed. i always liked it! find it so inspiring!
流星触れてても 冷たい指先
凍り付いた 月に照らされて
ひび割れた心が
燃え尽きる夜を抱くけど
一瞬の彼方で 煌めいた想いが
愛なら 幻にしてみせて
放つ光 空に堕ちる
望むだけの 熱を捧げて
死に逝く星の 生んだ炎が
最期の夢に 灼かれているよ
降り積もる 罪は優しさに
刺は微笑に 変えてゆけるなら
散る間際の花の
届かない叫びにも似た
祈りの儚さが 求める切なさが
二人の 出逢った時代を揺らす
嘆き 光 波にのまれ
痛みの中 君は目醒めて
傷つけながら 出来る絆が
孤独を今 描き始める
注ぐ生命 刻む羽根で
君よどうか 僕を包んで
光はまた 空に堕ちる
望むだけの 熱を捧げて
崩れ落ちゆく 過ちの果て
最期の夢を 見続けてるよ
MeteorThey touch, although with icy fingertips
Illuminated by the frozen moon
My flawed heart still embraces the night,
even as it burns out
That feeling that glittered off in the distance for a
split-second - If it's love, I'll try for that vision
The light is freed and falls through the sky,
sacrificing its warmth only for hope
The flame that's born of dying starts burns on in this,
my final dream
If the sin that falls and covers everything turns to kindness,
and if a thorn could become a smile
Like the unheard scream of a flower before it falls
The pain that searches for the fragility of a prayer
stirs the period when the two of us met
The grief and the light are swallowed up by the waves,
and in the midst of all this pain, you awaken
This bond that could be created because we were hurt
is beginning to paint over the loneliness
Pouring my life into this; with whatever wings you have left -
I'm begging you, please wrap me up in them
The light again falls though the sky,
sacrificing its warmth only for hope
This mistake caves in and comes to an end,
and my final dream continues on
6:03 PM
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its been a while since i posted. so many things happened. danzage is over. I'm gonna miss it, but it was certainly a happy experience so i'm happpy! :) hahas, shall share a letter here which i wrote to the dancers!
卸任感言: 88 天的城市人
亲爱的刘老师、现代舞的舞蹈员：
大家好。经历了漫长的时间，终于到了卸任的时候了。或许我将没有机会亲口与你们对话，所以在此与你们分享我内心中的一些话。自己知道并没和所有的人结下深交，所以就如姜子牙钓鱼–––愿者上钩，由你选择是否要读下去。
这一路走来，路很长，高潮迭起。我与现代舞可说有了三次的缘分。第一次。2008的年中，首次踏入现代舞。当时不知为什么，没能够感到很安心和自在地跳舞，感觉一种压迫感，决定离开了。现在后悔，或许太迟了。
第二次。2008年的年底，决定再试一次。没想到，刚好大家正在排练SYF。本来若找到多几位男生，也有可能参加。但没能够找到够人（当然要感谢邓老师和刘老师让我忧机会去尝试），11月底又到中国BSP浸儒，又与现代舞察身而过。但是多亏利盈余等其他舞蹈员的热情对待，让我能够安心融入。
第三次。2009年3 月4日。与邓老师和两位和领导等人辩论一番后，争取了三十秒的演出时间。之后，误打误撞就被排入整只舞里了。从这天到演出当天，算起来，刚好88天。
《城市人》这名字取得真好。恰好和我当时心里的感受一样–––迷茫。真的感觉到自己仿佛是一个迷失的灵魂，盲目地随风而飘；失去了自我，在茫茫人海中的我仿佛是沧海一粟；受到了创伤的心灵就如鸵鸟一般，畏惧着外面的世界。但是，我不甘心就这样下去。我不愿意就被过去所束缚。我想要闯出自己的天堂来。所以，就在《城市人》下了重注，以此作为一个起点改变自己的命运。
88天。几乎每天就跳着舞。时间一天天过去，我对《城市人》的舞越来越了解，跳得越来越好，对于自己的生命也越来越能够体会它的意义，活得越来越快乐。我学到的不只是舞艺，学到的更多是如何待人处事、对自己有了更深刻的了解、还领悟到了人生的一些哲理。我学到不耻下问的重要性–––无论辈分，只要资历比我好的，都要虚心向她学习才能进步。我学到如何对自己要有信心–––无论是在面对他人的冷嘲热讽，或者屡屡失败，都要能够抬起头来做人。我还学到了要如何坚强–––唯有在最黑暗的时候，人的心才能发出最耀眼的光芒。
88天：一天、一个星期、一个月… 我承下去了。因为想要证明只要有恒心，铁棒磨成针；因为对舞蹈有热忱；因为热爱生命。对于舞蹈，我一直是为了爱而跳舞，而带着充满爱的一颗心去跳舞。我相信人人都有能力实现自己的梦想。就比如这次的舞蹈，虽然说我天生身体僵硬、音乐感可能勉强过得去，然而我想信只要更加勤奋练习，也能够成功的。天才也得要学习，没有人生下来就会做事。那么说，一个慢三拍若是比一个天才下多十倍功夫，能不能够造就成为一位努力型的天才？这答案我还不知道，一位毕竟没能够发挥得淋漓尽致，或许在未来能够回答这问题吧。大家在过去的一年里，收获也应该不少吧？希望大家同样也获益不浅。
88天后的我，不再是当初那个迷茫的城市人了。现在的我更快乐、更坚强，更清楚自己的梦想是什么，也知道要如何达成。差不多也是离开这舞蹈学会的时候了。毕竟是有些小小的遗憾，除了在舞艺上未能达到我想要的水准外，更遗憾的是为能够很好地认识每一个成员。尽管如此，总着来说还是非常开心！
快要走了，在这短暂的时间里，没想会留下这么多美好的回忆。身为现代舞的成员之一，看见大家在舞台那出色的表演，还在SYF夺得金牌，真的感到很骄傲。但是更多的回忆不是在台上的时间，而是来自在台下的日子。我会想念和其他的《城市人》舞蹈员一同勤奋练习，会想念和大家一起做地狱般的热身运动，会想念开过挺严肃的团委会议，会想念森美、彦明、文劼、严密等人在闷热的礼堂里或冰冷的舞蹈室里教我舞蹈，会想念和朋友们在食堂里有说有笑地一起吃饭，会想念我们同在一起… 一路来，面对了种种挑战，但是并没有埋怨任何人。反而十分感谢大家坦诚相待，感谢大家在舞蹈方面给予我的帮助和鼓励、也感谢林露、刘佳和几位新认识的好朋友如可芸、美霖、颖洁、诗恩等人让我在现代舞的日子过得更开心！谢谢刘老师和团委在幕前幕后的贡献，打理我们学会的大大小小。当然也要感谢邓老师的关怀与细心教导，但我已经另外亲笔答谢他了，在这就不再多说。若曾经对给何人添麻烦，我在此深表歉意。其实到了此时，我早已经把大家看成一人一样亲密、重要了。这团体和当中的每一个人都在我心中留下了深刻的印象。只可惜天下无不散之筵席。我真的是不舍得离开，日后必定会想念大家。希望以后仍然能保持联络，甚至再次同台演出。祝大家能够继续在舞蹈上尽心尽力，在舞台上跳出忧美的舞蹈，让我们德明舞蹈学会发扬光大！
祝福各位：
梦想成真
天天快乐
德明政府中学
陈铭全 启
2009年6月9日
11:22 PM
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its not that hard. when you have to do something, when you don't allow yourself any alternatives, you will find a way to achieve you goal. Aspire!
zzz..was thinking about some stuff after buying lunch opposite my house. then started raining ahhh! so had to run home in rain. lols. a symbol that unexpected things always happen? hahas..going to do chem periodic table self study chapter now. ink and paper is so expensive to use!
2:37 PM
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Treating myself as a Champion now. Call me Champion Tan Ming Quan! (: stepped down from sc already, but its more than the tie that makes me an sc, its who i am. hmmm, so mnay thoughts running through myh brain. hahas you can coe ask me if yu are interested~
anyway, neevr thought that i would have problems persevering. but its time to put in the effort! Jiayous to myself!! (:
11:08 PM
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hahas, school work is coming in fast. A levels approaching soon too! but work hard, and play hard as well! a bit more free today cos sick and stuck at home. sianzz. want to get well soon!! but at least still have energy to do some studying. enjoy studying! =D
Annnnddddd..Dance! hahas, finally i'm on the road to fulfilling my dream of dancing. want to explore more kinds of dance. then can compare and pick which one i like best. But i think i got a bit of idea what style i like le (: Hahas, must come watch DHS SH dance concert on 31st May! Details to be out soon ~
Hahas i beginning to read up more and watch more videos on dance (: Here are some pictures of different dances. Note i picked male dancers! Would be nice to have more of my guy friends liking dance! (:
3:05 PM
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All my life
There was just me and my dreams
And the days went tickin’ by
Like the beat of my heart
Spend my nights
Wonderin’ how it would feel
When the waiting would end
And tomorrow would start
Suddenly I see the light
Out of the darkness I’m comin’ alive
So this is how it feels
Reachin’ for heaven
This is how it feels
Kissin’ the sky
This is what it means
Touching forever
Like a phoenix rising from the flames
I’m reachin’ for heaven
All this time
I never knew I was so strong
But you made me find the fire
That was there all along
In your eyes
I can see all I can be
Suddenly I want it all
And I know you’ll catch me if ever I fall
So this is how it feels
Reachin’ for heaven
This is how it feels
Kissin’ the sky
This is what it means
Touching forever
Like a phoenix rising from the flames
I’m reachin’ for heaven
You alone have shown me
Shining new hope rises now for all
I owe you
It’s my turn to show you
So this is how it feels
Reachin’ for heaven
This is how it feels
Kissin’ the sky
This is what it means
Touching forever
Like a phoenix rising from the flames
I’m reachin’ for heaven
Reachin’ for heaven
This is how it feels
Kissin’ the sky
This is what it means
Touching forever
Like a phoenix rising from the flames
I’m reachin’ for heaven
Reachin’ for heaven
Heaven
11:20 AM
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happy new year! hahas first post of the year, but hey no big deal about it.
I've been thinking a long time, and finally I understood. Its kind of late, but better late than never. Life can have so many complications at times, sometimes you have to disagree to agree, and to express something, you can't say it out, or it loses its meaning. Face the Truth, yet Dream like no one can say no.
I can finally let the matter come to a rest, and stop thinking for a long while...
12:44 PM
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